other side of the world
Do you wanna know my problem? I believe people. I guess I’m kinda gullible. It’s like when I watch those infomercials late at night and I really believe that I’d be better off in life with a fruit and vegetable dicer, even though I’ve never once cut myself while chopping any sort of carrot or pineapple.So when people tell me they’re going to do something for me, or that they couldn’t do something without me, I glow with pride. I don’t think that, maybe, they could be playing with me, or using my bursting pride to get something for themselves. I honestly believe that they value me and that they appreciate what I do for them.
Sometimes I believe people are my friends, when they just aren’t. Some people think I or my family can do something for them. They are opportunists and when they find out that we can’t help them in the way they want us to, they split. I’ll never know if that boy I had a crush on for over a year really thought I was beautiful or if he was just saying that to get closer to my family and our connections.
Someone recently promised me a lot. Some of it I knew was too good to be true, but the rest was plausible and I felt he really appreciated my advice and friendship and he was showing his appreciation. Maybe I was just stupid, but his were empty promises. He said he could do anything, and maybe that’s true, but what was in between the lines was that even though he could do anything, maybe he didn’t actually want to. I built up my trust in him, and now I realize that he was fake. It was all a lie to get me to help him.
I want to give people the benefit of the doubt. I don’t want to believe the bad in people. Why can’t we all just play with rainbows and butterflies? Why do I have to worry about feelings, hookups, betrayal and blow jobs?
I anticipate certain events in my life for weeks at a time. Multiple scenarios are constantly running through my head, so that by the time the situation finally rolls around, I’ve played so many perfect and terrible scenarios, basically nothing happens. That’s all that’s left. No big drama can occur if I’ve already mapped them out in my mind.
So, please, don’t promise me anything you’re not going to come through with. Don’t get my hopes up just to shatter them, even if you don’t mean to. All your empty promises are just a let down.
Word of the day:
dis·ap·point·ment Pronunciation[dis-uh-point-muhnt]
–noun 1. the act or fact of disappointing: All of his efforts only led to the disappointment of his supporters.
2. the state or feeling of being disappointed: Her disappointment was very great when she didn't get the job.
3. a person or thing that disappoints: The play was a disappointment.
-Me
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